This is probably the worst first two days of any quarter I’ve had.  7 hours of class yesterday (Thank god that’s not happening) and I had 6 hours of work today.  And I still have ~400 pictures to manually crop for the yearbook tomorrow.  Hooray.  Oh well, hopefully the rest of the week won’t be so bad.

I feel really lonely these days.

And I guess what I thought about myself was true.  I’m horrible at keeping friendships.

Here’s to a more happy tomorrow.

If this video doesn’t get you pumped up,  you have no soul.

I then promptly proceeded to KTFO on the couch while watching the Lakers-Magic game.  I really should sleep more.  I think I got less sleep this quarter than I have since high school, and I can’t remember the last time I slept before 2-3 am (OK I did it before my finals — but that doesn’t count).  I think this behavior stems from me not wanting to miss out on anything.  Like I don’t want to miss random hangouts or events, or I just want to stay up and just talk to people.  But I’ve realized this is pretty stupid, because most of time when I stay up, I’m pretty much just wasting time no matter what.  And reading this paragraph, I realized I used the word “I” an inordinate amount of times..  Hooray for shitty writing skills!

I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m just a pretty bad writer, case in point this blog.  But I don’t really care.  It’s for myself anyway and writing more will just improve my skills so ha.

Back to studying at 2:30am.  This is such a vicious cycle..

I’ve decided I’m tired of being a fucking doormat for people.  If they’re not going to respect me then I’m just going to give up on them and not give a shit.

I also need to get my life back on track.  I’ve spent too much time on things that won’t give me anything useful in return.  Also I think I’m going to drop things from life in which I have no interest in anymore.

so this weekend i went to my cousin’s wedding!  it was pretty awesome and it was definitely a boatload of fun.  i can’t imagine someone not being able to enjoy a wedding.  sure it got boring at times for me but i think the rest of the night made up for it.  its that point in my life where a lot of people i know are getting married and thus im no stranger to weddings these couple of years..  hearing those things they say at the altar and seeing two people take that final step towards being together, i think that’s really amazing.  it makes me a bit sad at the same time though, because i haven’t found anyone special in my life yet.  i think its because i put no effort into it at all and am just waiting for something to fall into my lap.. although i’m not quite sure that works.  i’m 21 now and have never been in a relationship.  i guess this is the year to step up though — im in college for another 1.5 years.. gotta take advantage of it!

and seriously, this fairy shit we have going on at our apartment is pretty ridiculous. i mean jesus people, just wash the shit you use right after you eat.. its not hard. sure i leave some stuff in their sometimes, but it always gets cleaned eventually.. and really its an apartment, not an immaculate army mess hall or something.  i understand the need for cleanliness and being tidy, but man not to that degree.

and last but not least, i don’t drink coffee, but this new “trenta” size at starbucks is kind of ridiculous..

hooray for photoshop.  I really like this picture, even though i pretty much overdid the effects.

im drinking a sprite can that has a neon green pull-tab.  so awesome.  i think i’ll save it.

and then this.

lets hope I get it right next quarter after 237698 failures.